Seedbed Part 10

My Thoughts on Alcoholism and Surrender

The drinks don’t taste the same anymore. I used to enjoy long island iced tea. Then it was whiskey. Later on, it was gin and tonic. More recently, it has been rum and coke. But try as I may I just don’t enjoy them like I used to. Although I have never had a problem with drinking myself, I have had my life shattered by alcoholics on two occasions now. Unsurprisingly, my patience for the monotonous, unremarkable, and morose conduct of those who drink excessively is in short supply. Still, part of me struggles to understand the disease of alcoholism which drives some individuals to drink uncontrollably, often hurting the ones they love, subverting their own potential, putting innocents in jeopardy, and destroying their own lives in the process. I drink very seldom these days. Yet I can’t help grappling with alcoholism every time I take a drink. Drinking will never be the same for me.

“If you want to understand a society, take a good look at the drugs it uses. And what can this tell you about American culture? Well, look at the drugs we use. Except for pharmaceutical poison, there are essentially only two drugs that Western civilization tolerates: Caffeine from Monday to Friday to energize you enough to make you a productive member of society, and alcohol from Friday to Monday to keep you too stupid to figure out the prison that you are living in.”
-Bill Hicks Continue reading

Seedbed Part 8


How does she get away with it? Would we as readily accept a Kanyewood? A Tom Cruise Land? Yes I know. I know. She is sweet and nice. She was dirt poor and worked her way up. But maybe she’s also a bit egomaniacal? A museum with innumerable photos, awards, outfits, shoes, and memorabilia…even a $750,000 tour bus…all of it Dolly. Her music emanates from every corner of the park. Her face is emblazoned on countless shirts, mugs, magnets, and posters. It is Dollywood after all. The woman has her own theme park. It is amazing and fun. And she is queen here. A most benevolent queen. But a queen nonetheless. In other news I descended into the depths of madness while riding the Wild Eagle roller-coaster today.

Originally posted to Facebook August 11, 2012

Seedbed Part 6

The Plan

I climbed into the car with my wife and our two dogs and headed out for Canada. It was the start of an amazing new chapter in our lives. I was taking a post at one of the best universities in the world and my wife would be starting her graduate schooling to prepare for her own professional career. We were debt-free and tuition was a non-issue. We were laying the foundation for a long and happy life together. This was a most auspicious day. Continue reading